never give your heart to someone who doesn't have one

this was originally my first blog idea, but i saved it for last today. (my son is really buggin' me right now about some movie, so ill make it fast). ima keep it real. ive had some pretty messed up relationships in the past. meaningless, im tryin' to tell you. sometimes i sit back and wonder what the heck i was thinkin'!! i cant even blame it on my youth. because i knew what i was doin'. i guess ill chalk them up to growin' pains. but as of this point in my life, ill admit: im going to be one stingy bastard when it comes to my heart. my son gets in, no questions asked. but id say he's the only make who doesn't have to prove his worth to be there. everyone else, i gotta test. i used to not care, but now im like 'show and prove'. when i love, i love hard. i dont like to leave room for doubt, exceptions, etc. the next bf i have, i only want to have eyes for him. i know i deserve a good 'relay'. i want it to be natural. not something i had to beg for, long for, hope the person changes if i love 'em long enough. you know, all that mess. its one thing to be patient with someone, its another thing to just be wastin' ya time. knowing the diff' is crucial. if you give your heart to someone who doesnt have one, it doesn't mean they're 'heartless'. it means that they just don't have a 'heart' for you. and thats ok. ain't nobody say everyone is gonna love you. but i think a lot of people ignore that tiny feeling in the back of their mind tellin' 'em there's no future with someone. we tell ourselves, ' well i dont know the future, so its still possible.' wrong and right. wrong in the sense that with some people, you just know it ain't gon' happen. no matter how optimistic you are. and right, no one knows the future. but i'll tell ya, i have some pretty good premonitions...as of right now im happy with the person im involved with. do i know if we are going to end up together forever? naw! am i willing to find out? yeah. will i ask questions and try to get to know if they are on the same page as i? hell yeah, i'd be a foo' not to. oscar wilde said something like 'ill wait forever for you, as long as you dont take too long.' and that's some of the realest sh** i've heard. he kept it real! everyone has their limits. dang, most people do want that whole happily ever after, but they aren't going to spend a lifetime to get there. guard your heart. you want to give it to someone who'd trade theirs for yours. not run off with it and send you a postcard sayin', 'wish you were here'.